seeking god at the va clinic

I had an appointment at the VA Clinic in Tallahassee, Florida today. I never know what the day will bring but that doesn’t matter. I try to seek God wherever I am. I finished my business then got on the elevator to go from the 2nd floor to the 1st floor and out to my car. I was thinking about my Lectio Divina I had this morning. I stood there for the longest moment and thought, Why am I not moving? Is the elevator stuck? The answer was, the elevator was not stuck but I was. Then it hit me. That is like me sitting on a park bench in the cold of winter waiting for God to come to visit me. After getting a little annoyed with God for standing me up, I realized that God was sitting next to me all the time, but it was I who was stuck. Like the elevator, all I had to do was press the button for the 1st floor, but I was so preoccupied with myself that I stuck. All I had to do is press the button. All I had to do is abandon my will and seek God as God is and where God is and all God to be who he is, and all my worries fade away.

Praise to the Father and to the Son and to the Holy Spirit, The God who is, who was, and who will be at the end of the ages. –Cistercian doxology