WONDER IF…

INSTRUCTIONS: This is a Meditation for you. I find it helpful to read it out loud, even if I do so alone.

Wandering down the labyrinthine pathways of the upper room of my inner self, I sometimes have ideas that flit through my consciousness that don’t fit into any system (that I am now aware of), but, because I know everything in reality is linked to everything else, it might be a mosaic of some future picture, as yet hidden from my view. Such wonders are the realm of Experimental and Existential Catholicism, one that seeks to be in the presence of Christ, no, longs to be there, to wait for awarenesses from past Lectio Divina to be unfurled or fit into a piece of the puzzle left blank.

Prayer becomes a time of intense introspection and retrospection, open to the ontic possibility of the manifest ability of whatever Christ makes new in the world around me, as well as in the tabernacle of my inner room (Matthew 6:5).

I offer three such Lectio Divina fragments, along with my cursory interpretation of what they mean to me. You must also do the same because you and I receive the overshadowing of the Holy Spirit according to our disposition to receive it.

FIRST IMPRESSION: Right now, living in both the world of matter and mind (physical and mental universes), and dependent so much on books, computers, even Holy Scriptures, there is an almost unperceived linkage to knowledge of the past and written or computational dependece on being fed ideas through the various languages we have learned with which we try to find meaning and purpose as we matriculate through the minefields of what is true from what is not. We know that we know, but we don’t have infused knowledge about the future. We learn in space and time, in proportion to the inputs we assimilate from the world of books and experiences, using the filters and systematic theorems that have allowed us to make sense of the background noise of reality bombarding us every moment.

Contemplative thinking breaks that mold, as I define it, when I use the combined systemic thinking of The Genesis Principle, The Christ Principle, and the Principle of Truth (think of one reality with three living and dynamic persons), not as a book to read or a YouTube video to find out how something works or is of value to me or not. What I have become, due to developing the habit of being present to Christ in the silence and solitude of my heart, is not dependent upon words, although they are useful as one step in the process of helping me focus on Christ. My impression is that all of this is a way for Christ to prepare me to interact after I die, where there are no libraries of physical books to read or computers to watch. What I have in Heaven after I die is what I have discovered as meaningful in the Heaven within me while I live. I have evolved from dependency on words and even on my thoughts to just longing, with ever greater anticipation and euphoria, to sit in the presence of Christ in that upper room of my inner self, my holy of holies, my tabernacle, where the Real Presence is kept vigil by my presence, and just waiting. Like the wonderful feelings I had growing up in Vincennes, Indiana, sitting on the screened porch in the Spring and Summer at night with mom and dad and my family, just content to sit there, wrapped in the awareness of those there but not needing to say anything. I think my Heaven is what I thread with the golden thread given to me at Baptism by Christ, attached to Him, but as only I can thread through those people, experiences of good and lessons learned from poor choices, being of service to others, particularly those I want to reacquaint myself with when in Heaven, so that I know what they know about the Divine Equation and their knowledge of life, what love means, and the truths they discovered linked to Christ. This is my living library, not of books but of being one in Christ Jesus, My Christ Principle. I access it, as I am learning to do while living in this shell of humanity, by being aware of the complexity and consciousness of all around me (existere) and letting Christ gently unfold it to my nature as I can absorb it. I am learning in silence and solitude how to make all things new, how to link all creation (physical, mental, and spiritual universes) as one, not from my energy, but by being in the presence of Christ and the overshadowing of the Holy Spirit.

I long to be in that presence with ever eager anticipation (prayer) where I am more and more aware that I am at the deepest level of my human evolution, one not depend on the learning I must plough through in my lifetime, but by transitioning to sit in the presence of the one I love and relish the overshadowing of Jesus, the Holy Spirit, to the glory of the Father.

IMPRESSION TWO: I watched a YouTube video about Elon Musk’s efforts and his vision for reaching Mars. Another YouTube video features scientists saying that humans are not designed to be space travelers because we are tied to Earth’s physics and must follow the rules of human nature.

My wonder comes from an insight that maybe God has always had a way for our human species to travel through space and time, moving from Alpha to Omega. Wonder if the Earth, being unique for human existence (so far) in all that we observe, is indeed the spaceship, destined for Omega, inexorably guided and powered by the physical universe, to allow our mental universe to evolve from matter and mind to a third resolution, from the dissonance and perplexity of free choice to what is good or bad for me. This is not a moral choice, but rather a choice of behaviors that contain the energy needed to lift us to that last level of our evolution, as sons and daughters of the Father and heirs to the Kingdom.

I am on a spaceship with just enough oxygen, just enough temperature to exist. I have reason and free will to use this spacecraft and its occupants (all life forms) to fulfill our destiny, eighty years at a time, if we are lucky. We are the stewards of our spacecraft, with the ability to enhance or destroy it. As part of the challenges, we humans operate in an imperfect context, although our nature is good because the Creator is good. We have a purpose, both as humanity and as individuals, to reach not just another planet but a place prepared for us, where we can use all those languages. Christ is our Magister Noster, our teacher, our Rabbi, to give us what we all need, and we all have unique needs, to join Him forever at that deepest level of our humanity, one prepared for us from the moment matter is. All individuals have to do is seek in order to find, knock so that it is opened to us, and ask to discover all the needs we must have to live in perpetual knowledge, love, and service with Jesus and the Holy Spirit, to the glory of God the Father.

IMPRESSION THREE: God leaves fingerprints on all matter, all life, all humanity, so that it moves in the resonance of physical, mental, and spiritual levels of evolution to one end, Omega, the fulfillment of our humanity at the next level of evolution, rationality beyond time and matter. Because humans are gifted with reason and free will, the notion of truth and what is good and what is evil, morally or ontologically, we live in a pepetual state of not knowing what being human is, nor how to do it to satisfy the three longings of the human heart, those in whose image and likeness we emerge: (knowing, loving, and serving others in this lifetime so that we can enjoy each other in the fullest expression of our humanity).

ACTIO: Do What He Tells You.

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