A Lay Cistercian Looks at Spiritual Reality
What follows is a rather long blog (there must be a term for this, such as maxblog, or some other ridiculous title). I wrote this a while back and thought that it fit into the discussions about DUAL CITIZENSHIPS and where choice comes from. It is not the act of choosing that is good or evil for our human evolution or moral equilibrium, but rather WHAT we choose to make those decisions. I shudder to think I have either the Democratic or the Republican way of thinking, or, God forbid, the Communist/Socialist principles that have and are destroying many cultures and societies. I get to choose what system or way of thinking to give me fulfillment for the dissonance I normally feel deep inside, where I thirst to know the depths of my human evolution, learn to love at that deepest level, and use principles of absolute truth outside my human nature to navigate the minefields of human corruption (original sin). I chose Christ as my Principles and my Catholic Heritage gives me what I consider to be the authentic way that Christ wanted his folloers to tred that would lead to the truth beyond human corruption, and so enter that last level of attainment of human evolution, citizen of heaven on earth so that I can evolve further after death to be with the one in whose image and likeness I am created.
THE DIVINE EQUATION: THE MARTYRDOM OR CORRUPTION OF EVERYDAY LIVING
The focus of my thinking these days has been on Original Sin and how humans must live within its parameters, such as death, pain, emotions, and the ambiguity of choosing between good and bad behaviors we think will make us satisfied. Saint Augustine also struggled with this concept and coined the famous catchphrase: “Our hearts are restless until they rest in thee.” How did humans end up with all these faults and failings of their human nature? What does Original Sin have to do with how I live out my commitment as a Lay Cistercian? Why must I struggle each day to reposition my center with the help of the Holy Spirit, lest I drift into dissonance? In another blog, I have written down what I do by way of habits to keep my equilibrium in the condition of Original Sin. I am not morally corrupt by nature, but only by my choices. What God made is good. What I do may be good or bad, depending on my choices. All my choices have consequences that will be made public in the last judgment. St. Benedict’s Chapter 4 has one of his tools as:
41 Place your hope in God alone.
42 If you notice something good in yourself, give credit to God, not to yourself,
43, but be certain that the evil you commit is always your own and yours to acknowledge.
44 Live in fear of judgment day
45 and have a great horror of hell.
Everything we do will be known to all. This is due, in my opinion, to the fact that our choices, whatever they may be, are part of the fabric of our existence and are who we are. “I am not you; you are not me; God is not you; you, most certainly, are not God,” is a quote I frequently use when I host a pity party for my past bad behavior. I live in a state of corrupt behavior, one that presents me with both behaviors that lead me toward my true self and those that cause me to embrace my false self through Original Sin. Being in the warm embrace of the Lay Cistercian community, I am overshadowed not only by the Holy Spirit but by the same Holy Spirit who overshadows all my Lay Cistercian brothers and sisters. (Silence, Solitude, Prayer, Work, and Community) To combat the ever-present effects of Original Sin means that the Sin of Adam and Eve is forgiven by the Father, who chooses me to be an adopted son (daughter), but its effects remain my challenge, as I must go from self to God. I use the Cistercian practices and charisms (charity, humility, obedience to the will of the Father through Christ, and those tools of good works suggested in Chapter 4 of the Rule of St. Benedict). https://christdesert.org/rule-of-st-benedict/chapter-4-the-tools-for-good-works/( See above)
If we are strong, each of us only lives seventy or eighty years (so says the Psalmist). We interact with the World as we experience it using our human reasoning and good or evil choices within that time frame. The problem with human experience is twofold: 1. What is right or wrong? and 2. Who determines what is right or wrong?
There are two options for us to choose from: good or evil. One choice is to be the final authority on what is good or bad (morally, spiritually, and in every other way). What is good depends on what I choose. Put another way, something is right or wrong because I choose to make it so. The second choice is that what is right or wrong comes from outside ourselves, with a power greater than ourselves. Something is ultimately good or bad for us because God tells us so. Remember, each individual only lives for 70 or 80 years, if lucky.
CORRUPTION IS THE NORMAL DEFAULT OF ALL REALITY
Let me share with you some thoughts from my Lectio Divina meditations (Philippians 2:5) on living in a world marked by the effects of Original Sin.
Corruption occurs in three universes with distinct characteristics and outcomes.
THE CORRUPTION OF ALL MATTER AND ENERGY: Corruption in the physical universe –Everything in the universe of matter, time, space, energy, and life has a beginning and an end. This is the default corruption of the normal. Don’t think of corruption as moral corruption. That comes in the next universe, the mental universe. This corruption is the dissonance of having a set beginning and end. Nothing exists forever, at least, in the physical and mental universes. Each has its own energy type, but only through nature’s generation. I am certainly not as powerful as Stephenson 2-18, a red hypergiant star about the size of Neptune’s orbit. Yet, this most powerful and most enormous of stars (that we know of) doesn’t know that it knows. I study this star to learn about who I am and where I am going. It does not have the energy to propel me from animality to rationality by itself. Stephenson 2:18 does not have the power to study who I am and receive the power to be the Father’s adopted son (daughter). What does that tell you?
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CORRUPTION IN THE MENTAL UNIVERSE: Corruption of human nature and the individual mind— The mental universe is where only humans live (my hypothesis). As far as we know, humans are the only species that know that they know. Animals don’t know that they don’t know. Human reasoning and choice are the two components that distinguish us from other forms of life, even though we share some elements of being together. This is the next level of progressive natural engineering, which happens naturally,
As our race began to acquire knowledge of what is good or evil, it did so within a corrupt infrastructure. Everything deteriorates; our human personae are corrupted, but knowledge is passed on to another. So, when I look around at the parameters of my life, the World, I see physical corruption and corruption of ideas as they are measured against me and other persons or groups of persons. This idea can resonate with who we are intended to be as a species (our purpose, our destiny) or with the dissonance in our intended progression. Where do we get the questions and answers to determine our eventual end? It can only come from inside us or outside of us. In the mental universe, there is only the power to live until you die, to somehow sift through all those philosophies and psychologies of what our purpose is and what the meaning of life is. We have the unique ability to reason for a reason. To uncover the mysteries of being and the purpose of why I wake up at this particular time in time and space and look around me, I ask six questions to help me sort out the chaff from the wheat. I have collected the answers to these questions from my awareness of the purpose of life. These answers come from the spiritual universe. The mental and the physical universes do not possess the energy to answer these questions correctly and to allow me to execute them as God intended. I call this quest The Divine Equation. These six questions are:
Having the right questions and answering them with the right answers will generate enough energy to move us to the next level of our collective maturation as a species.
Characteristics:
There is an answer to this, the answers to the six proofs of the Divine Equation, which I have stated above. Where I get those answers depends on this next level of evolution, that of the Spiritual Universe.
THE CORRUPTION OF THE SPIRIT: The condition of Original Sin. Original Sin is the default condition found in the tremendous archetypal story of Genesis, which goes to the core of who humanity is and what we need to do to reach our intended evolution as a species and as individuals. Humans make choices that make them morally corrupt. We did not make good choices, so Israel was chosen as the people to know authentic or non-authentic existence in the Old Testament.
I keep asking myself why it is so difficult to keep myself centered on Christ and then forget about it until I get to automatic heaven. My answers over the years have been that, although I have been adopted by the Father as an adopted son (daughter), I must nevertheless continue to struggle each day to seek God, lest my resolve weaken. I don’t learn what it means to take up my cross DAILY and follow Christ. This is my unique cross, the sum of my life, both my achievements and the defeats of my good intentions. I am the sum of the choices that I have made. What influences my choices is the Holy Spirit, but all of this is within the context of the corruption of the physical and mental, and perhaps the spiritual universe itself. I keep asking Christ to have mercy on me, a sinner. I am a sinner because I make new choices and run the gauntlet of good and evil thoughts each day. Corruption of the physical and mental universes permeates my choices.
The corruption of the Spirit means that the Holy Spirit is not corrupt. Still, because I live in the physical universe and thus am subject to its laws, the choices in the spiritual universe are inexorably bound together. What is corruptible is not my reasoning, or even my ability to choose what is good from what is bad for me. The key to understanding humanity’s tendency to choose this over that, for what is perceived as good for the individual in the moment, lies in WHAT you use as the basis of your reasoning and the choices that flow from it. Religion, philosophy, or a psychological system of thought, even science, as looking only at the physical universe, using the complexity and consciousness of human reasoning and the language of science, is what I must freely insert as my worldview or systematic approach to my choice of good or evil.
For Catholics and Orthodox, we inherit a system or way of thinking that leads to various truths, based on our assumptions. The result is a way of life that leads us to lead lives as adopted sons and daughters while on earth, so that we can take that knowledge, love, and truth with us after we die to the highest level of our human evolution, one where we can only enter it with a certain mindset.
The Lay Cistercian spirituality, based on the Cistercian Way, which is rooted in the Rule of St. Benedict, which is, in turn, grounded in Scripture and the Traditions that come down to us from Christ, is the tool that I use to fight against the condition of the corruption of the Spirit that permeates my humanity. Trying to do God’s will is my mantra. Over and over, to practice contemplative prayer through Lectio Divina, The Eucharist, Eucharistic Adoration, the Rosary, Reading from Sacred Scripture, and the Liturgy of the Word.
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THE REAL BATTLE FOR THE SOULS OF THE FAITHFUL This corruption of physical and mental universes comes from the natural progression or evolution of matter, energy, time, and space. With the introduction of the human species, the only life form to be lifted to a higher level of human reason and free choice, a radical change occurred in the fabric of what went before. Now, dissonance enters a universe that abides by the laws of nature. The term we use for this occurrence is Original Sin, based on the biblical narrative of the origins of human nature and why its acts are sometimes at odds with a perfect human concept (Genesis 2-3). Human nature is not evil but exists in a flawed CONDITION that each species inherits.
Some people will not realize that there is a battle at all. If you only live in two universes (physical and mental), you won’t be aware of another dimension, one you must choose to enter, designed to prepare you to accept responsibility for your role as an adopted son (daughter) of the Father. This dual-universe concept, which we call The World, is based on Galatians 5. In fairness, not everyone in The World is evil nor without the nobility of their species. It is the condition of which I speak, not the individual nature that has been wounded.
Baptism is so essential that all the other sacramental moments are there to sustain it as each individual, from child to adult, moves from two universes to three universes, the destiny of their race, and their fulfillment. Baptism is a sign that God’s signature is on your forehead, the cross.
This crossover from two universes to one of accepting our adoption and acting according to God’s rules for us, not our own, occurs within the context of our ordinary, everyday routines and patterns of behavior. The individual is critical here because they have free will and the reason to accept God’s invitation to move to the next level of human evolution, a choice that demands it. The Christ Principle (Jesus Christ, Son of God, Savior) loved us so much that he became our nature, with all that it implies except sin, so that we could learn how to love in such a way that we could inherit what God had intended for us in the Garden of Eden (Genesis 2-3). It is no coincidence that Jesus the Messiah became one of us to teach us how to survive the corruption of the physical and mental universes and open to us the possibility of living forever, a characteristic of the Kingdom of Heaven. But there is a problem. Humans don’t have the energy to lift us to the next level of our evolution. Only some of this makes sense with the knowledge and experiences around us. God has a problem, too. How can God communicate what lies in store for those who love Him with mere human language that only uses the stories and dreams of those who desire to be one with an entity they can only approach through the corruption of matter and energy? The Christ Principle showed us what to do, how to do it, and then did it as an example for us to follow.
The battlefield in the Kingdom of Heaven on earth militates against the corruption of the physical and mental universes, which seeks to infringe on the only thing it can control with the individual’s permission: human choice. If you picture yourself standing on the battlefield of each day, going through whatever comes your way, this is why you struggle with putting Jesus into your heart EACH DAY and why yesterday’s battle is not today’s opportunity to claim your inheritance as a son (daughter) of the Father.
The Spiritual Universe is God’s playground and is not corrupt. At Baptism, it overshadows you, just as the Holy Spirit did with the Blessed Mary, Mother of God. The problem is you still live in the physical and mental universes, which are corrupt by default, called the effects of Original Sin. Individuals are susceptible to being seduced by the forces of darkness to deny that God has the kingdom, the power, and the glory. Baptism takes away the Sin, but the effects remain, and so does the lion roaming the earth, seeking whom He may devour.
Practically speaking, my Lay Cistercian journey begins with my profession of promises to live in such a way that I am aware, each day, that Christ offers His presence to me in ways I can choose to be present. The Corruption of the Spirit (my Spirit) means, like St. Paul, I don’t always do what I say I will do. Even with my sins forgiven, I must seek God’s mercy each day, not because I am a great sinner, but because I need the Holy Spirit to help me battle against the corruption of everyday living, thinking that all of this is so much cotton candy and that my prayers are not efficacious (I love that word).
Because I live in the Kingdom of Heaven on earth, yet my body must be consistent with the corruption of the physical and mental universes, the Christ Principle is the sign that what might seem folly for the Gentiles and a stumbling block to the Jews is actually the key to my fulfilling my evolution as a human being.
LEARNING POINTS
St. Paul comments on this condition of corruption when he says in Romans 7: “14We know that the law is spiritual, but I am carnal, sold into slavery to sin.j15What I do, I do not understand. For I do not do what I want, but I do what I hate. 16 Now, if I do what I do not want, I concur that the law is good. 17 So now it is no longer I who do it, but Sin that dwells in me.18For I know that good does not dwell in me, that is, in my flesh. The will is ready at hand, but doing the good is not.k19For I do not do the good I want, but I do the evil I do not want.20 Now if [I] do what I do not want, it is no longer I who do it, but Sin that dwells in me.”
NOW WHAT? I relish the time I have to be with Jesus through the energy of the Holy Spirit. I look forward to being with the one who has emptied Himself for my sake and asked me to do the same for others as He did for me. I am grateful beyond my ability to express it, and I am excited in the depths of my upper room that Jesus came to me and asked me to place my hands on his side and feel the holes left by the nails. I am joyful beyond human experience to be called by the Father to be his adopted son (daughter) in a condition where there is no corruption, only resonance with all reality, my playground for all eternity with those I love and those whom I can chat with as much as I want.
If you are a wandering Armenian, as was Abram, in the confluence of competing ideologies, the Catholic Church is one of those. Still, one, having gotten my hands dirty digging for spiritual gold, I found the motherload. This gold I can take with me to Heaven. Do you know how to dig and get your hands dirty trying to find the way that leads to a life at the extreme capacity and capabilities of your nature (using 100% of my human nature), then I encourage you to think about where you will be in 100 years and what you want to have around you to enjoy at that time? I know where I will be absolutely.
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